how we think
the beliefs we create
from our experiences
become a complex overlay
of our consciously
and unconsciously
held trauma
unwinding the patterns
both somatically and emotionally
integrating our gained wisdom
aligned with our spiritual nature
is our liberation
Ruth Roberts
In arriving
in this form
our essential hardware is
always in the background
our software often suffers
broken linkages from
our ancestral lineage
outdated conscious and unconscious coding
limiting how see ourselves and each other
this conditioning
layers of
predetermined stories
can restrict
our ability to function
in this world
it is through entering
chaos’ apparent disorganization
patterning can be
recognized and interrupted
and occasionally met with a crash
giving space for
awareness
understanding
new vision
to arise
always undergirded
by the support of our hard drive
a universal relationship of ground
new programming can be installed
connections get rewired
fresh coding integrated
our system
instals the latest updates
reconfigures damaged links
while retaining historical data
as it accesses and informs
more congruent pathways of comprehension
in completing its tasks
all applications with all their collective complexities
become activated when their process is initiated
this correlates with
life’s conquest for
conflict resolution
routing clarified
updated synapses
freeing up storage space
to revise old versions
increased speed in performance functioning
with greater capacity to hold and retain past and current memories
a coordinated dialogue between all moving parts
supporting connectivity and embodiment
providing knowledge, skill and relationship
to the creative and illuminating source
an essence that governs all life
Ruth Roberts
I Weep
for all that has been
broken
forgotten
repressed
suppressed
in not remembering
these losses distort
perception
resulting in
anger
righteousness
a need for control
to make things
‘feel’ safe
I reflect
what was the moment
of disconnection
knowing something was wrong
how do we find
truth
ruth
venturing into
the murky layers
of forgotten memories
back to a place inside
when there was
no choice
to ensure
survival
imperative
to construct
to make sense of
a reality that
still unconsciously
demands
reinforces
its beliefs and values
a part
a structure
a pattern
created by necessity
adapting
its valiant effort
to maintain safety
in the external holding environment
I weep
for all the lost years
searching for
love respect dignity
life begins with love
not necessarily meaning
a parent’s definition of love
as they may hold a
spoken or unspoken agenda
current and ancestral wounds
a predetermined overlay
or no plan
consciously and unconsciously
impacting new life
so where does love begin
I ask myself
I believe
each new being
breathing into life
is here
to
remind parents
open their hearts
grow
in relationship
softening yet strengthening
their bond
creating a space for
potential healing
unexpected miracles
love
is always here
our soul
yearning for wholeness
searches for
a returning to
light before thought
quiet before action
oneness before separation
birth and death
meet in essence
we become peace
we are love
I weep
Ruth Roberts
Sometimes
silence is all I have
wordless
movement expressing spirit
redefining
what has been
yet not limited to
anything other
than this present moment
Ruth Roberts
being shaped embryologically
by our parents and ancestry
instilled through cellular memory
wavelengths
shortened or lengthened
our body’s and mind’s agility
impacted
influencing
the way we think and interact
reaffirmed through conditioning
establishing a ‘norm’
reverberating in
the collective unconscious
until we know its relationship within
we are unknowingly in reaction
from that which has been acceptable in our individual communities
each society’s deemed ‘proper way’ to behave
how can we truly know the ground we stand upon
how can we understand and respond from our heart
a place that promotes universal harmony
respectful of the essential qualities of being
that we all are birthed of and into
unless willing to commit to
an uncompromising and unending internal review of
all that has been established as the status quo
protecting what may appear to serve us but
not serving our planetary living beating heart
making a choice to enter
into the fear
the possibility
we may not know the answer
trusting to venture
into the dark night of the soul
as the veil lifts
we discover
a light at the end of the tunnel
returning to our
interlinking connections
gathering in our
understanding
wisdom
grace
in this
we serve all
Ruth Roberts
shifting our perspectives
through
trusting
unwinding
remembering
attuning to
embracing body-spirit knowing
all the interconnections
intact
waiting to be met
Ruth Roberts
Tearing
wet crying
or a ripping apart
alone
I gather
tumbling thoughts
from wounded beliefs
I feel
the density
or vacancy
of my heart’s connection
struggling
yearning for clarity
grieving lost moments
waiting in silence
an answer
quiet and then
a softer deeper wisdom
listening
weeping through and healing
my calloused scars
Ruth Roberts
I am Not
all that I can be
and yet I am
complete
choosing to
engage
explore
gather
evolve
wholeness
beckoning
a persistent
gentle tug
leading me to
fall back
remember
holding its fullness
attuning through essence
settling
I begin anew
Ruth Roberts
my heart’s desire
embodied
silence
chaos
knowing
emotion
remembering
instinct
in being
student
teacher
spirit
a work in progress
Ruth Roberts
